Wednesday, November 20, 2019

Jane Kathryn - September 2019

September had arrived!

Our baby Jane was packing on the pounds and she was smiling up a storm!  Don't mind Jon and his shirtlessness - it was still hot outside!  Bahaha!  Sorry, Jon. ;)


The kids swam... (surprised?)


And I took 198,375,821,357,123 pictures of Jane.

And go..................









Another tooth had emerged...



Jane's new favorite toy, Nubs the cat...



I couldn't get enough of this girl...


Henry and Eliza did their kid thing.  Yes, yes - Eliza's riding a wagon down a hill.  Was I terrified?  Yup.  Did she fall?  Not this time... *puts hands over eyes*


Jane and I ventured out and got in some early Christmas shopping...


Another new toy for Janie Jo...

This walker.


She could only move backwards at first and this is where she ended up.

It was pretty darn funny.

Nobody puts Janie in the corner!!!  Bahahahaha!


Great success!


These two cuties before school...


Warren-love (our neighbor boy).  He'd always walk in and say, "Hi, baby Jane."  I love him so very much.


It was around this time, a few days into September, that I started to feel overwhelmed, utterly exhausted and in over my head.  This was about the time my baby blues were settling in.

I expressed my thoughts and feelings to Jon.  I told him I needed help.  I was very close to going to see a therapist and/or consider medication...and that's TOTALLY okay.  I'm not saying it now to reassure myself, I was proud of myself for acknowledging that I needed to do something and that "something" was out there to help in whatever form it may be.

I told Jon that I needed to start taking care of myself and I needed some "me time."  There were many tears shed and I WAS NOT liking who I was becoming.  I'm sure to everyone else I seemed completely fine, but I was really, REALLY struggling while at home.

Jon had purchased me a massage way back on my birthday and it was set to expire in September.

I called the very next day and set up my appointment.

Honestly, it was the start of the self care that was so desperately needed.  To get out and breathe and pamper myself...  It was the baby step to feeling better, both mentally and physically.

An amazing friend of mine had me over to her house for coffee and I just talked and talked and talked...I cried a little too.  I considered that part of my self care, as well.  Just to be raw and emotional and a complete hot mess.  My conversation was all over the place, but I'm so grateful for that day and I left feeling like I cleared my head of clutter.

I went for a run here and a run there...and before I knew it I was back to exercising on a somewhat regular basis.  Jon would quite literally force me out the door.  I love him.  Endorphins were making me feel normal and energized and happy...

I tell ya', motherhood/parenthood is a tough one.

The days since have become easier.  Boring and lonely at times, sure, but I'm feeling happy again.  My emotions are just about back on track.  

I share this just in case there's one person who reads it...in the very middle of this blog post, who needs to hear that the days can...well, they can suck, but they can be magical too.  Motherhood is awesome.  Joyful.  I love these little beings more that words can express, but I was losing myself in the process.  I now feel like I'm 80% back to whatever "normal" was for me before.  I also share this as a reminder to myself of how far I've/we've come.  I wouldn't change a thing...crazy, suck-y, happy days and all...


So there you have it...

Aaaaand back to it...

Eliza loved being in the bath with Jane...



A run with Henry...


A Cabbage Patch baby...


Homecoming goodness for the older kiddos...









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Hunting for Mums with Daddy...


Wellness Check Up!





AppleFest with one of my best friends!


My Uncle came to visit!!!


We tried out a new restaurant...


Aaaaaaaaaaaaand that's where I'll stop!

Phew!!!

Okay, I think that just about does it.  I'll have an October recap coming up, too, but as for Jane's posts I'd say the recaps are back to what we're all up to nowadays.  WooHoo!

Thanks for hanging out and scrolling through!

Marie :)

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